I'll Tell You When I'm Home (a Memoir)

By (author) Alyan Hala
Short description/annotation:
The rich and deeply personal debut memoir of motherhood via surrogacy, by award-winning Palestinian-American poet and novelist Hala Alyan.
Description:

After a decade of yearning for parenthood, years marked by miscarriage after miscarriage, Hala Alyan makes the decision to use a surrogate. In this charged time, she turns to the archetype of the waiting woman – the Scheherazade who tells stories to ensure another dawn – to confront her own narratives of motherhood, love and inheritance.

As her baby grows in the body of another woman, in another country, Hala finds her own life unravelling – a husband who wants to leave; the cost of past traumas and addictions threatening to resurface; the city of her youth, Beirut, on the brink of crisis. She turns to family stories and communal myths: of grandmothers mapping their lives through Palestine, Kuwait, Suria, Lebanon; of eradicated villages and invading armies; of places of refuge that proved only temporary; of men that left and women that stayed; of the contradictions of her own Midwestern childhood, and adolescence in various Arab cities.

A stunningly lyrical and brutally honest quest for motherhood, selfhood and peoplehood, I''ll Tell You When I''m Home is a powerful story of unravelling and becoming, of destruction and redemption, and of homelands lost and recreated.

Review quote:

‘A poignant exploration of her tumultuous path to parenthood, identity, and displacement … The memoir unfolds like the tale of Scheherazade from One Thousand and One Nights, where Hala becomes the ‘waiting woman,’ reckoning with all the truths of her life before stepping into motherhood … a stunning kaleidoscope of vignettes … More than a story of motherhood and exile, I’ll Tell You When I’m Home is a testimony of everything at once … a moving tribute to the strength of those forced from their homelands and ruthlessly exploited, as well as a celebration of women’s determination to survive and thrive.''

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''Alyan’s poetic prose encapsulates miles in each sentence and paragraph; joyfully, revisiting a passage is another chance at uncovering a new gift. Her nonfiction narrative voice allows the poet in her to shine, especially as each chapter is told in a series of short glimpses weaving together past and present, the old and the new Hala. ... With I’ll Tell You When I’m Home, Alyan has created a record, a story to communicate with those departed and those new to life. In the process, her work is an antidote for others searching for a home they never asked to lose.''

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''[A] gorgeous, lyrical memoir ... I’ll Tell You When I’m Home shows the power of even a single narrative to resist the deliberate erasure of a people and their homeland, the violence of colonisation.''

Biographical note:
Hala Alyan is a Palestinian-American writer and poet. Her novels include The Arsonists'' City and Salt Houses, winner of the Dayton Literary Peace Prize and the Arab American Book Award, and a Chautauqua Prize finalist. Her work has been published by The New Yorker, The New York Times, The Guardian and Guernica. She lives in Brooklyn, where she works as a clinical psychologist and professor at New York University.
Endorsement:

‘A roaring cyclone of memory and imagination and harrowing tribulation. Surrogacy as metaphor for exile. Exile not as a dream for a better life, but as concession, a begrudging necessity. Gaza, San Miguel, Beirut, New York, Damascus – traveling with Alyan’s prose is a thrill. I''ll Tell You When I''m Home feels as rich and supersaturated as contemporary consciousness itself I can’t stop talking about it.’

Endorsement:

‘I’ll Tell You When I’m Home is an exquisitely wri